Another year off

Yup its coming up soon, not sure why but this year Im actually looking forward to it. For me especially whilst growing up, birthdays were awful. I cant remember a "happy" birthday, parents always rowed. Or I would wake up and see mum having slept on the sofa (again). This continued for every birthday, always something that would spoil it, always something to reduce me to tears. Like when I was 16 and my father turned to say he didnt have a daughter. Yup this continued past my teens, always seemed like that was the day bad news was delivered to me. Not once have I not cried on my birthday.

So why on earth am I looking forward to this one? Well maybe just maybe this one will be different. This one may just be the "happy" birthday that I do deserve! Odd isnt it how we change, how the influence of others can make us see stuff in a different light. Or maybe Ive finally stopped growing up, stop trying to take responsibilty for everything and anything, even stuff I have no sway over, now its time for me to have some fun! Maybe Im just learning to finally let go of some crap that has been with me too long now. Reminds me of line from the Matrix (great film, not just because of Keanu...but well I mean come on..the guy is soooooooo cute) where was I? Oh yes....you think thats air you are breathing?