Where has the weekend gone

Ok time I caught up

Well Friday night went out with work, was ok certainly could have been a lot worse! Food was ok, nowt special had a good laugh though. Got home fed hogs, poor things waiting for their chicken, they had some dry stuff, but as soon as it was down they were there!

Saturday worked in the am, was quite steady once it got going, which is nice on a Saturday you dont want the time to drag, especially when you want to get home! Was going to do a bit of shopping but the town was packed so decided to come home instead. Had some a small lunch as was still full from the night before. Spoke to a very good friend of mine on the phone, always a pleasure speaking with them. Took some photos in the garden, quite a lazy afternoon really.

Was having my dinner when another friend phoned...wont go into details here.

Had an extremely late night in the end, didnt go to bed until 3 am! So wasnt expecting to feel up to doing much on Sunday. Had a nice lay in, drank tea in bed listening to the radio..bliss. Been out taking some more photos, but its so humid here right now, that I havnt got much energy. Hmmmm no energy, I do feel knackered.

Had a bath, will think about some dinner soon, going to phone birgit see how she is. Will put some photos on blog. Get hogs dinner ready, I could hear hog scratching in box earlier and possibly hog may have got up for a snack, as some of the food has gone that I leave out in the day, plus some straw has been moved from the entrance. Could this hog be female? I really must try and grab, but dont want to scare hog, this one gets enough of a battering from Jill as it is, without me causing any more grief, guess we will just have to wait and see. Oh need to check the finances too, will do that now.

All in all a good weekend, but seems to have just whizzed past really....Oh well best get some stuff done..

Another favourite song

Simon and Garfunkel Lyrics:
America

"Let us be lovers we'll marry our fortunes together."
"I've got some real estate here in my bag."
So we bought a pack of cigarettes and Mrs. Wagner pies
And we walked off to look for America

"Kathy," I said as we boarded a Greyhound in Pittsburgh
"Michigan seems like a dream to me now"
It took me four days to hitchhike from Saginaw
I've gone to look for America

Laughing on the bus
Playing games with the faces
She said the man in the gabardine suit was a spy
I said "Be careful his bowtie is really a camera"

"Toss me a cigarette, I think there's one in my raincoat"
"We smoked the last one an hour ago"
So I looked at the scenery, she read her magazine
And the moon rose over an open field

"Kathy, I'm lost," I said, though I knew she was sleeping
I'm empty and aching and I don't know why
Counting the cars on the New Jersey Turnpike
They've all gone to look for America
All gone to look for America
All gone to look for America

Back to normal

I dont feel like I have moaned enough lately on here, its been all fluffy white clouds and photos, hardly any moaning at all, lets see if we can rectify that.

Top 5 things that are currently grating me

1. The fact that this last couple of weeks, everything in the house seems to want to either break, or have an issue

2. Utility companies scaring me with red bills, due to the fact their system went down

3. My current performance at work

4. That another w/e will be taken over doing business stuff

5. My watch is too big for my wrist.

Not much of a list is it. I do hope I havnt lost the ability to moan about stuff!! Lets think some more...

Top 5 things that I could scream about

1. Still has to be trolleys just being abandoned randomly

2. My inability to remember shopping I need until Im at the check out or at home

Oh my god Ive run out of stuff to moan and scream about. Wonder if Im coming down with something, throats a bit sore, glands are achy. Yes that must be it Im sickening for something.

Blimey

He is a clever chap, made the church photo sunny. Really will have to write me a manual, I would read it honest!

Well its a nice morning out there, its fairly windy, but really fresh too. Great for breathing, although Ive had an attack of the sneezes this morning. Still its nice to have a break from the stifling heat we have had of late, looks like more rain today so the garden will be rejoicing too.

Sorry for my absence yesterday, wasnt feeling to great (lady time) so was much nicer to be laid down, rather than sitting up. Still us girls dont complain we just get on with it! Actually yesterday afternoon I hid myself in an office and didnt see a soul!!! Good chance to catch up on work too. New furniture being sent today WHOO HOO!! Another late night at work, sorting it all out be worth it though.

Well I suppose I should finish getting ready for the "w" thing and be on my way.

Oh and Mike, hope it goes ok today.....

Oh crikey

Where has this year gone? Its blinkin August tomorrow, soon be Christmas!!! I know its meant to get quicker with age but this is ridiculous it really is. What happened to the long lazy days of summer? The nights are already drawing in. I havnt even made all the plans of what I wanted to achieve before im erm, erm, erm another year older! Ok so I guess the best thing I can do is start to plan what I want to have achieved before im erm erm erm another two years older, feel free to leave recommendations..

Its really chilled down here some what at the moment, rain it feels is imminent. What happened to the sunshine and the nice hot weather....Contrary moi? OI Im allowed to be ;)

Well another new setting

On the camera to confuse me, good job I have great reassurance!

Other news, I seemed to have a huge break out in spots on my face. Well actually im not sure if they are bites, as they are bumps rather than spots. I use anti-spot wash everyday, plus face wipes too, Im not obsessed honest, so Im quite surprised ive had this outbreak. I wont go into the details (you will be thankful) but they arnt like normal spots, hmmmmm something attacking me in my sleep maybe ?

Have I mentioned music

Laid in bed this morning with a cup of tea, Hey its allowed its Sunday! I wake up to music and fall asleep to music every day. Anyway ive a new favourite song so thought I would share, go on the link scroll down you can then view the video and listen to the song.....its fantastic!!!!!

New Fave Song

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The Bonnie tyler came on; total eclipse of the heart, of course I was reduced to tears, now if you can listen to that song with out crying, then Im amazed. It was followed by Maria Mckee; Show me heaven. Think some one is trying to tell me something. Well im up now washing has gone in the machine, accounts will be done, well thats the plan anyway.....

better photo

Looks much better now, thanks again

Photos

More challenges

Well, need to load software onto new pc, then restore the accounts from the floppy disks that I make back-ups on. Just one small problem, the new pc doesnt have a floppy disk drive!!!! Didnt even enter my head when I was in staples to check for that, I just thought that they would come as a standard. So unplug all wires, whilst keeping fingers crossed the old one would start up again. It did, so copied onto a dvd disk, then made them into a file and emailed the restores to myself too as back up.

Swapped wires back over again, it worked YAY. Stress levels go down again. I then waited for some motivation to come along to actually get me started, none came, after several cups of tea still none came. Phone rang, so was distracted again, but that was good.

After phone call, sat again at computer loaded up the payroll, now it doesnt take long to do, but its really just getting me started thats the problem, I can put stuff off til the last minute as I know I can still get it done, hell I work better under pressure anyway. SO went for a walk up on the fields was lovely and cool, the air was quite fresh and was so much easier to breathe. In fact at one point I thought I was going to faint as I seemed to take too much oxygen, I went all woozy and black dots were in my eyes. Still it soon passed, took a few photos see above, but really it was too windy as everytime I had the subject in focus a gust of wind would woosh it out the way again.

Well now I guess Id best get to the shop and get some tea, then I might just might just might...NO I WILL run the payroll........honest

It must be the month

for things breaking down, you already know about the computer, well the tap now has started to drip again, its the cold tap this time, not sure where I put the other washer either. The speakers on the stereo are fading in and out too, wonder if its a loose wire?

The thing in the "house that Phill wired" is that everything is wired into everything else, for example we dont have plugs we have those junction box things, where all the wires go in. All the cameras have been wired by him, he made a wire to go from the video to the pc so I cant add anymore as I dont know how he has done it! At the back of the tv its a mass of wires and tie wraps, actually Im sure the house is held together with tie wraps, mind Im very much guilty in too, they are amazing they just hold stuff together, plus come in all different colours and sizes.

So Im sat here and trying to decided which speaker it is, now this isnt too easy as one of my ears doesnt work properly, sounds are particularly annoying to find. Once on a holiday in Tunisia my friend pushed me up for one of the "games" (actually she kept pushing me up for them) well one was you had to be blindfolded, a bell was rung and you had to follow the sound, could I do that? Could I fuck, apparently it was very funny to watch me walking the complete opposite to the noise, good job I can laugh at myself. Another one was where you had to kiss as many blokes in the room as you could in 3 minutes, I couldnt really be arsed with that one!!!! One of the entertainers asked me up to the DJ box too, I declined his offer went to the loo and bugger me he was outside waiting for me, he tried to kiss me too, all I saw was this huge tongue coming towards me, I ducked and swerved he ended up kissing the wall..close escape that one I can tell you!!

Oh im off subject (how unlike me) SO Im trying to figure out which one is fading so I can look at the wires, we have plenty of wire here, Im thinking If I choose the wire thats the same colour it may work? One speaker is under the desk, where all the computer wires are, I also found a hub under there the other day I didnt even know existed!! As I said the house that Phill wired.

Talking of Phill, he isnt too happy at them moment with the job, well Im reading between the lines of his text, which was he will be back next week if things dont improve. But I know this is just letting off steam, he probably needs a break, which he will get in September he should be back around the 14th. So of course I will look after him and comfort him, providing the ultimate relaxation experience (yeah right!!!) No I am nervous of him coming back as its been 3 months, dont get me wrong we got on just fine the last time he was back, but there is always that slight tapping at the back of my head. It will be nice to have the company, but not the moaning! Boy can he moan, normally at me!!!! Guess thats just his way of showing he cares.

God really off subject now!!

Ok the temporay tile job needs doing again as the tiles are starting to unstick themselves from the bath..Oh Joy, really liked that job. The shed door has gone al weird, as has the gate, but can live with that. The boiler is taking ages to warm up the water again, but I might just play about with the settings, it was only put in last year so surely that cant be breaking too ?!!?!?

Oooo rain

Well it came, the thunder the lightning, the rain....doesnt feel that much cooler but not as hot so hope for a better nights sleep. Unfortunatly my mind is racing, cant stop it Im darting from one thing to another. Still at least its friday tomorrow WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Blimey

Its so humid this morning, I can hardly breathe. Last night was very difficult to sleep, we had some rain but not much, it certainly hasnt made it feel any cooler.

Hogs still havent had any young, wonder if they have been unsuccesful due to the heat. Ive also heard that the area may even have a watering can ban soon if we dont get any rain. The poor beds are looking so dry, the plants are starting to wilt. It is forecast for thundery showers today though, mind they did say that yesterday too!

Oh well, Id best shake a leg and be on my way....

flutters

Sorry not a very informative blog of late, I seem to loose so much time, during the day and the evening. Of course I will try to dedicate more time, but just doesnt seem enough time in the day of late, I enjoy my hour and half walk in the evening, up on the fields, its much cooler and so empty. They have started harvesting seems early to me, mind when I was up at the w/e I did think that it was ready...can take the girl out the country etc...

Was a very familiar sight to see the combine churning up the fields, although the dust wasnt welcome! Quite amazing really, have watched it grow from nothing, now its life is over...oh god Im now feeling sorry for the corn..god help me please!!!!

Bump

Went my head this morning as I tried to get out the bed the wall side! OUCH! The shower head was set to high so got a woosh in my face, then the milk curdled on my cereal.

Didnt have any more cereal so had to have toast with nut butter on...mmmmmm but I will be hungry by mid-morning now..

Hmmmm think this will be a good monday (not)

What a clever chap he is

I think Mike needs to write me an idiots guide to editing!!! Thanks again!

few photos from short stroll

I of course did try to get some of the business stuff done too, reloaded some stuff but was too warm and too nice a day to be sat indoors! Had a nice stroll, loads of flutters about too! Also loads of crickets, they were HUGE too. Nice to be out on the fields as it was much cooler, had a nice breeze running through the corn..

Oh dear

Get pc sorted, cams sorted and no bloody yahoo!!

Its much cooler here after the rain, so ive been using the time to catch up with some stuff, got Turin brakes cd on, nice and relaxing but feel a change coming on, not sure what though I want to listen too, amazes me ive many cd's but will only listen to a select number! Ah sod it will put nina simmone on. Thats better ish, hmm may change it again in a wee while.

Suprisngly after not much sleep this week I feel wide awake! Ive got the new keyboard and mouse working in the end, hey it was easy really ;)

So much to say with so little words to say it in, I often get like that, head racing ten to the dozen but can never find the words I want to say, or end up stuttering, as I normally do at work. Think the problem is my mouth cant keep up with my head, when I used to work with old boss it was fine, as I could talk a load of crap and she knew what I was on about. Aww she is such a lovely lady, found out last year she had ms, really not fair at all, if there was one person in the whole world that didnt deserve that its her. Still she is battling on with it, ive the upmost respect and admiration for that, although as she would say, whats the point in dwelling on it, just got to get on with it.

When she first told me, I was fairly blindsided by it, her family were phoning in tears, she felt like crap. I of course offered if it got bad to push her wheelchair, plus asked if she got a discount..I can still remember her laughing and calling me a bitch or words to that effect. Really pisses me off when some one so good gets something like that. Although Im not a feeling person, I can never find the right words to say, not that I make a joke of her illness at all, but if I can make it a bit brighter then I will. Plus she gets a blue badge so handy for parking....oh that seems cruel but trust me she would be laughing, honest!!!

Well....

I tried to fix the pc, took it apart (lost 2 screws) cleaned it all, put it back together and still did the same. How stressful, just had 2 days from hell, this was all I needed!

Managed to speak with phill, who was considerably sympathetic to me (not) he told me to do a few things, so I nagged, now Im not normally one for nagging as I like to win my case by a good argument or well sort out theory, but sometimes you just have to nag. I nagged, nagged, nagged, swore, cried, shouted. Eventually he told me to replace the pc. Also that he didnt know why I was asking him as I would have done what I wanted to do anyway (true enough).

So last night went to staples, with the help of a very kind chap bought a new tower. He should me how to take it apart and to add stuff if I wanted, I asked him so many q's even he got confused. Now I wasnt sure what I needed, just one that stays on will be fine for me, but he did recommend this one.

Got it home and its a dream! Its so quiet, I keep feeling the back of it too, to check its not overheating!! Which of course it isnt.

Today, few hours at the branch doing some tidying, home by lunchtime, housework to do..yawn! Put the washing out then it rained!!! WHOO HOO. The afternoon just seemed to melt away, now its evening, just been to the shop, nearly walked out with out cigarettes. Just need to load some more stuff on new pc, then I cant start with the arduous task of sorting out the business!! I think ive sorted out the tax problem again, well for this month anyway!

Stuff seems quite back to normal again, less stressed, much happier and more content.

Im so

fed up with the blinkin pc.....nothing works, it refuses to be fixed, I could really do with out this at the moment, I can only get on for 20 minutes max at a time... I dont know what else to try....... Plus with the inland revenue messing up again, work is bad, life isnt easy at the moment.....oh no smoke coming out now, best save this before I blow up...

Quickly

Ok can just quickly update this as pc is on, but I can smell burning so will have to be quick.

For those who have got my number a text would be better than a message on here as I dont know if I can always get on to check.

Just really want to say why is it when something goes wrong it all goes wrong, the pc, Inland revenue are messing me about again, Ive got company tax, vat, end of year plus payroll to run at the end of the month too, with out a computer its going to be hell.

In short Im really fucked off at the moment. Jan thanks, I will let you know, Im going to try and sort this one out, or I will try and get my laptop back from phills brother. Inland Revenue are trying to fine me again, I wish they would just sort it out. Plus im really stressed at the moment.

You know how everything was really happy and going well. Well now its not, so thats the end of that. Im really fed up with everything at the moment, plus it seems like everything now is going wrong. All I can say is I must have been really bad in a former life I really must have been. Well to be fair I guess I bring a lot of it onto myself too.

So if I can get on I will try and return your messages, but well if its urgent you have my number.

From a very pissed off, sick to death, fed up with the whole world me.

This maybe my last

post for a while..the pc seems to be broken, its on borrowed time as I type this I can smell burning, think its really broke this time. It cut out before but managed to get it back on, but for how long I dont know, how long it can keep going time will tell.....soooooooooooo I will say goodbye for now, incase it cant be fixed, I cant really afford to replace it as yet, but will of course take it all apart and try to rebuild it again from scratch, must remember to write down where all the parts go...............................bollocks how many times do I have to do this???

Hot Hot Hot

Phew just been outside and its going to be another hot day! Its meant to change again tomorrow though with thunderstorms (eeeek!) Well I hope you all manage to keep cool. Heard a good tip on the radio this morning, fill a hot water bottle with cold water put in the fridge, when its cold put on your feet and ankles!

Well best get to my 18C air-con office, tee hee!!!!! No seriously you know I would share it if I could! Hope you all manage to keep cool....x

Happy?

Several of you now have commented on how happy my blog is of late, now I would love to tell you why this is...........but I wont!!!!!! However it is also down to the fact that im exercising to the point of exhaustion every day, therefore sleeping better, plus those endorpin thingys are kicking in.

The main reason is im letting myself be happy, not worrying so much or making myself feel guilty about being happy. Without going into too much detail Ive always led my life not allowing myself, actually not being allowed to be happy. Living in fear of letting myself be happy then it all coming crushing down by my feet. Also Ive been carrying something with me for a long time that I have felt extremely guilty about, every day beating myself up over it, but lately I havnt thought about it so much. Dont get me wrong its still there, but its different, its almost like im moving on.. Which before when Ive tried I have pulled the reins back in..

hmmm its sure odd, but im liking it...hey its all good!!!!!!

Its hot!

Apparently with the temps set to rise even further...thank goodness for the air-con at work. Ive worked in many places without it during the summer months and its not pleasant...

I feel really good at the moment which is such a nice change, Im of course wondering how long it will last, but trying not to think too much about it, but just enjoy it for how ever long it does last.

Ive started also to do my kickboxing video too, I used to to it daily which was such a great stress reliever. Although I dont unfortunately have much co-ordination so when it comes to punching with one hand and kicking with the opposite leg, I get quite confused, normally ending up in a heap on the floor. However I will keep going with it as it does make you feel great after, well after you can breathe and stand up again :)

Apart from that not much else is happening, too hot to go out walking, as there is no air about which isnt pleasant. Got another work thing on Wednesday straight after work....YAY!!!!! Still only til about 8pm so I guess not too bad.

New hog (or weedy as Karwin named him) is still staying over in the box, still surprised at this as I would have thought to hot to stay in there. When he/she has got more used to me I will attempt to see if she is a boy or girl. Already have two girls, so would be nice to have a chap about the place again, for them too..

OH well, best go and earn some more pennies.................will skip to work with big grin!!