Yay its Friday!

More Q's from Pete, ok some are blank, will fill the rest in later....



16. you ready for some more?

Yup

17. what's your favourite animal?

Has to be the spikey things (photos later)

18. of all the 10 commandments, which do you think Pete breaks?

None, he is a clean, non-commandment breaking chap

18a. most often?

See above

19. what's your favourite beverage?

Tea, milk no sugar thanks

20. what/who would you have on your desert island? (5 things please!)


r

21. what's the best board game?

monopoly

22. what is immediately to your left?

cup of tea

23. what would be your 1st major purchase upon winning the lottery?

Charity Donantion

24. when was the last time you farted?

If you have to know it was this morning...yes we do it too

25. name your top 3 puddings.

Cheesecake, Cheesecake, Cheesecake

26. do you know anyone famous?

No

26a. who?

27. what age would you like to be again?

I can be any age I like, its called lying!!

28. if you could change 1 thing about your life, what would it be?

Not be so soft and far too giving

29. name the person you shared your first kiss with.

Ohhhhh I was 14 I think, not particulary great as fas as I can remember

30. what is your favourite film?

Tough one, recently watched planes, trains and automobiles.....great film

31. What's the first thing you do in the morning?

Declare how I hate getting up in the morning!

32. Who in the world would you like to....
a. go for a beer with?

Not fussy there, will go for a beer with anyone!

b. go birding with?

Some one who is tolerent

c. go shopping with?

Got any sharp twigs for my eyes?

d. snog?

Oooooo couldnt possibly say on here

e. punch?

Im not really a violent person

f. have a secret romantic trist with?

Oh having several of them already

g. serve at the fishmarket?

Really dont know

h. go to Africa with and film Big Cats with?

Some one who knows what they are doing

i. ermmmmmmm.

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrm indeed

33. What do you think of the Royal family?

I dont really think about them much

34. What is your most prized possession?

Erm


35. Who has inspired you?



36. Have you ever taken/would ever take hallucinogenic drugs?

Yup

37. Is there anything more frightening than being chased by a
battalion of monkeys armed with hammers?



38. What's your favourite biscuit?

Chocolate hob-nobs

39. What's the most embarrassing thing you've ever done?



40. What's your favourite shop?



41. Do you consider fishing a blood sport?
a. why?

42. Did you have a happy childhood?

No

43. What do you reckon folk in the future will think of us?



44. What will be your next purchase?

Hog chicken

45. Name 10 female presenters of Blue Peter. no google no.

OUCH!

well at least I managed to be on time today, well ish. Sometimes in the morning all I seem to do is fanny about with out actually doing anything. Probably as Im still half asleep, but mainly as I hate getting ready for work, the whole up in the shower, eat breakfast, get dressed, put make up on, try to do something with hair that looks like I havnt just washed it and left it, which is actually what I do. Then its usually a dash round the house whilst trying to clean teeth, put shoes on, make sure ive got everything, find key, then leave. Actually once I did get to the road and realised I still had toothbrush in my mouth!

Anyway today has been bloody awful, not only work wise, but injury wise too. Some how ( I dont know ) ive managed to cut two of my fingers, only realised when I saw the blood, so im sporting plasters. Then as I was coming out the toilet, my foot stopped the door but my head kept going, BANG. One of my colleagues then trod on my foot, which ok that hurt, but as I was saying OW, he grabbed my arm to say sorry, but didnt realise he was pinching my arm, im saying OW OW OW OW, he thought I was owing over my foot where as in fact it was my arm that was hurting the most :( Then I was getting an envelope and bashed my knuckles on the metal shelves....To top it all off, its lady time!!!! (sorry chaps)

So im feeling sorry for myself, going to make a hot water bottle in a bit, as tummy is quite hurting, plus I feel sick too and my headhurts...............you know where to leave sympathy :)

My lateness

Well I was late yesterday, but for a reason, after the magpie incident. I was on my way to work, when I saw my boss the other side of the very busy road, stood by the cat that lives this side of the road. Now this cat is a pain, it eats the hog food, chases the bird, but well thats what cats do, its the owners I think are responsible as they shouldnt let their cats out at all hours to roam, plus its not good for the cats.

This road is very busy, so we are using a very odd way of communicating with our hands and arms, she manages to pick it up, but no way she can cross over the road, so has to walk down a bit to the crossing. Then back up again. The cat gets loose and starts to goto the road again (stupid cat). Well, Ive got some cat biscuits in my handbag (you never know when you might need some) which tempts it back, I grab my the scruff and pick it up, seems ok, its lost its collar, not sure on feeling its tum whether or not its pregnant. Get up to near where I live again, it starts to freak as a van goes by. Ive got claws stuck in me everywhere. Its now being called a little **********. Manage to calm it down then put it down and off it trots!

Finished work early as well ive done some extra hours of late. The magpie is back, its able to fly but not very far, so I put some food on the fence for it, which it came and ate, it also had some water too, so should be fine.

Went to do some stuff in the kitchen and there was the biggest spider in the world!!! In the sink, honestly was huge as big as my hand!! After much screaming, deliberating, I did get a glass and card and capture the thing. Where it went outside very very quickly. Spent the next half hour looking for its mates...

Oh crap will have to finish this later, im late again!!!

Whoo Hoo its wednesday

Well my new phone arrived, charged it all afternoon, got home swapped the sim cards over and it didnt work!! Bugger I thought. Had to go straight back out again, so put sim card back into old phone, on the way to Hatfield swapped them over again and hey presto, it worked! Was very close to having to get the manual out!! Can you believe that ?!?

Still not sure as to what to do with the sim card that they sent with the new phone, no point in me keeping it really, if I want to change my number then I can just ring vodafone I guess? It would be such a pain though changing my number. Oh the calls I am getting are from mobile numbers, im sure its a company thats doing it on one of those automatic dialers, at least I hope its that rather than a stalker with about 10 different mobiles.

Well its wednesday, lets hope for a good day, bit of a sad start went out this morning, saw a magpie, his wing was hanging down a bit, the jackdaws were all about, so imagine there has been a fight . It was still hopping about but a bit dazed. When I went to look at it, it went under a car, looked a bit dazed, but the wing didnt look as bad as I first thought. Been out there now to see if ok and its gone, so not as sad really as it must have flown away, guess it was in a bit of shock thats all.

Anyway, will add more later as Im in danger of being late.....

Disaster Monday

I wont go into detail, too be honest I cant really be bothered to relive the awful day Ive had. Enough to say, I was stressed, angry, frustrated, annoyed, but my feelings have been made known...enough about work.

New phone should be here tomorrow, Im seriously considering having my number changed as I am still getting those phone calls, will give it a bit longer, but its getting to the point now where I think it would be easier, well actually would be a pain, but at least I wouldnt get these phone calls anymore. Oh but the hassle of a new number, ive only just learnt this one!!! Its ...07...yeah Im gonna put it here. Ok if you look in some call boxes you may find it there, well a girl needs to eat!!

Ok Im starting to feel less ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHH now, Im sure by mid-week I will be much less frustrated and much calmer...

Here is to a better Tuesday, although a late one as I have a work thing....

just some fun

Your Birthdate: September 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations. You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you. Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans. You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot. Your strength: Your ability to gain respect Your weakness: Caring too much what others think Your power color: Orange-red Your power symbol: Letter X Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

Sunday shots

Phone calls

A while ago now I was getting withheld numbers on my mobile. I used to get about 10 in one minute they would ring once then ring off, this use to go on for a while. Whilst it was annoying there wasnt that much I could do. It eventually stopped and I though nothing more about it.

Until the last couple of days, they have been starting up again. This time there is a number its a mobile number the first 7 numbers are always the same then the last 4 are different. It rings once then cuts out, im getting up to 5 of these a day, very annoying. When I ring the number back it goes to an orange answerphone, with no clue of who is calling. Now Im thinking that this must be from a company as the mobile numbers are all but the same.

I phoned my provider who said they can trace but would have to involve the police etc. Decided against that for now. Ive registered my number with TPS and also the silent call service. So lets hope they will stop. I would of course love to know who they are and why they only ring once!!

Ive also upgraded my phone today, new one will be with me on Tuesday, nearly didnt when they said I would have to have an 18 month contract, but when I said no I will have to think about this, they changed their minds, but said the next upgrade would have to be on an 18 month contract. Hmmmm, apparently as the phones are getting more expensive, I thought they would be getting cheaper but what do I know.

Apart from that, not an exciting day, been up on the fields, see above photos. Cleaned out the feeders, been to sainsburys (exciting). Now it will be bath, dinner and bed. Ready to go back to work. Looking forward to getting back into a routine but that first day back is always the worse. Sort out my desk, get it back to how it was when I left it, catch up on reading and all thats changed. Find out where we are, where I am etc etc. Plus Mondays are never a good day for me anyway, also a feeling im on my own, so there wont be much time for catch up...ah well...

more ickle shots

Ickle

The only hog that is still coming for supper each night. She is still such a small hog will grab her and weigh just to be on the safe side, but im sure she is big enough to sleep as her neck is nice and round, poor little hog is never going to be a big hog, has such a small frame..

Transformed photos

Isnt he a clever stick!

Search Engines

Was reading annas blog, though I would check what bought people here....not as exciting as anna's, but some did raise eyebrows......oh sorry pauline

hogs blog (4 - 10%)
hog blog (4 - 10%)
cranberrys (2 - 5%)
sexuploader site:blogspot.com (1 - 3%)
hog town front blogspot (1 - 3%)
pauline's tits (1 - 3%)
Knebworth House (1 - 3%)
luton hoo walled garden (1 - 3%)
BLOG anna nicola (1 - 3%)
need to keep hogs out (1 - 3%)
Groggy Greenfinches (1 - 3%)
hogs mating hogs (1 - 3%)
hoggy + hog (1 - 3%)
hog head and pillow (1 - 3%)
funny video site:hog (1 - 3%)
hunky firemen pics (1 - 3%)
ickles (1 - 3%)
CRANBERRYS VIDEOS (1 - 3%)
cheery pics (1 - 3%)
nicola hog blog (1 - 3%)
Hedghog mating (1 - 3%)
hog (1 - 3%)
hog blogs (1 - 3%)
hog photos (1 - 3%)
sexuploader++blogspot (1 - 3%)
sexuploader site (1 - 3%)
dears

Just a few from Cambridge

More q's

Thanks to pete......Oh btw, the Austrian one can post her answers in the comments please......else no pudding for you at christmas :)

1... what is your favourite bird?

Teaspoons, they just make me smile so much

2...how many pairs of shoes do you have?

4 Pairs...no 6 including boots

3...what did you have for dinner?

Chicken salad, very nice too

4...could you ever eat snails?

NO

5...what was the last thing you had in your mouth?

My finger nail

6...what is your best feature?

Erm...I like my thumb...I dunno

7...what is your worst feature?

My big old clown feet

8...who is your best friend?

hmmm tough one that, have some pretty good mates on here

9...who was your childhood nemesis?

Claire, cant remember her second name, but she took my best friend away and I had to hang out with the boys...not much changed there then

10...having fun?

Guess..

11...where in the world would you like to go to tomorrow?

House hunting.....Oh I am!

12...when was the last time you lied?

Erm, probably to phill at some point

13...why?

Get me out of doing something no doubt

14...how does bob marley like his donuts?

Dont know

15...tell us a secret about yourself.

Oh good god NO, not yet anyway

Back

Ok ive dipped to the lowest point now im fed up so now its time to get back up there. No more depression, really gonna give it a fishin try..ok some fun, borrowed from, oh you know who you are...

1. (X) Smoked a cigarette. about 5 mins ago
2. (X) Crashed a friend’s car. sorry about that, erm several times
3. ( ) Stolen a car.
4. (X) Been in love. sniff
5. (X) Been dumped. sniff sniff
6. (X) Shoplifted. I was young
7. ( ) Been fired/laid off.
8. ( ) Been in a fist fight.
9. (X ) Snuck out of your parent’s house. Ha ha, and back at 4 am!!
10. (X) Had feelings for someone that didn’t have them back. Too often
11. ( ) Been arrested. close
12. ( ) Gone on a blind date.
13. (X) Lied to a friend.
14. (X) Skipped school.
15. ( ) Seen someone die.
16. ( ) Been to Canada.
17. ( ) Been to Mexico.
18. (X ) Been on a plane.
19. ( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire.
20. (X) Eaten sushi.
21. ( ) Been skiing.
22. ( ) Met someone in person from the internet.
23. (X) Taken pain-killers.
24. (X) Love someone or miss someone right now. Yeah they know who they are
25. (X) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by. and stars
26. (X) Made a snow angel. great fun
27. (X) Had a tea party.
28. (X) Flown a kite.
29. (X) Built a sand castle. still do now when I can
30. (X) Gone puddle jumping.
31. (X) Played dress up.
32. (X) Cheated while playing a game.
33. (X) Been lonely. Oh yes
34. (X) Fallen asleep at work/school. shussssh
35. ( ) Used a fake I.D.
36. (X) Watched a sunset. beautiful
37. ( ) Felt an earthquake.
38. ( ) Touched a snake.
39. (X) Slept beneath the stars.
40. (X) Been tickled.
41. (X) Been robbed. bastard
42. (X) Been misunderstood. all the time
43. (X) Petted a reindeer/goat.
44. (X) Won a contest.
45. (X) Ran a red light. not on purpose
46. ( ) Been suspended from school.
47. ( ) Been in a car accident.
48. (X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night.
49. (X) Had deja vu.
50. (X) Danced in the moonlight.
52. ( ) Liked the way you looked.
53. ( ) Witnessed a crime.
54. (X) Questioned your heart.
55. (X) Been obsessed with post it notes. Still am!
56. (X) Squished barefoot through the mud.
57. (X) Been lost. followed my own directions
58. (X) Been to the opposite side of the country.
59. (X) Swam in the ocean.
60. (X) Felt like dying.
61. (X) Cried yourself to sleep. too often
62. (X) Played cops and robbers. anyone want to play?
63. (X) Recently colored with crayons.
64. (X) Sung karaoke. That suprsies you ?
65. (X) Paid for a meal with only coins.
66. (X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t.
67. (X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose.
68. (X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
69. (X) Danced in the rain.
70. (X) Written a letter to Santa Claus.
71. ( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe. Any offers ?
72. (X) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
73. (X) Blown bubbles.
74. (X) Made a bonfire on the beach.
75. (X) Crashed a party.
76. (X) Gone roller-skating. Well I crashed a lot
77. (X) Had a wish come true.
78. ( ) Worn pearls.
79. ( ) Jumped off a bridge.
80. ( ) Ate dog/cat food.
81. ( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them.
82. (X) Kissed a mirror.
83. (X) Sang in the shower. Every morning!
84. (X) Had a dream that you married someone.
85. (X) Glued your hand to something. Yeah several times
86. ( ) Got your tongue stuck to a flagpole.
87. ( ) Kissed a fish.
88. (X) Sat on a rooftop.
89. (X) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
90. ( ) Done a one-handed cartwheel.
91. (X) Talked on the phone for more than six hours on one occasion.
92. (X) Stayed up all night. Several times
93. ( ) Didn’t take a shower for a week.
94. ( ) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree.
95. ( ) Climbed a tree that had a tree house.
96. (X) Been told by a complete stranger that you’re hot.
97. (X) Ever had a one night stand.
98. (X) Ever missed someone so much it still hurts to think of them.
99. (X) Ever loved someone that you knew wouldn’t love you back.
100 (X) Ever been to a professional football, or tennis game in a stadium ground.
101.(X) Went hiking in the mountains.
102.(X) Smoked a cigar.
103.(X) Had a crush on someone you worked with but never told them.
104.(X) Wished you had the chance to change your profession.
105.( ) Ever cremated and kept the ashes of a pet you cared a lot about.
106.(X) Wished you could live your life over again from age 21.
107.( ) Been baptized?
108.(X) Rode a horse.
109.(X) Sent flowers to someone you never met Work thing

mondays

Ok well im not at work today, so can just leisurely go about my day, had a nice relaxing day at home, pottered about with the camera. Was experimenting with the video recorder on the camera, never knew it had one, might be good to put outside on the birds. Went for a short stroll, have really exerted myself at all.

Well I hope someone some where has had an enjoyable monday too...

feel like crumbling?

Join me..........

I dont

understand why everything has to be so bloody complicated or difficult. There are so many people in my life that have such a crap time, I guess it affects me more as under this really hard exterior is quite a softy. I have had too much time on my hands of late, gives me too much thinking time. Not just about me, my life, where ive gone right or wrong, but others around me too. Whether it be through illness or just plain bad luck, there is just so much crap in life. Its at times like this I do try and turn to my faith, not just the religious sense, although I do believe there is something out there, plus I do believe we get more than one chance in this life, that our souls go up and wait til they find another shell to grow inside. Im kind of finding it hard right now though.

I know everyone has a purpose in life, we all have our parts to play, whilst some are more significant, they are all equally important. Id like to think that we all know what part we have played in our lives, maybe we never know, maybe thats the thing we keep striving to find our part, but dont realise when we have played it.

Oh ignore me, im just at another set of crossroads, trying to decide which turn to make. Fucking crossroads (not the tv programme) ive been here more times than I care to imagine. I got a b'day card from my mother yesterday, too be honest wasnt expecting one at all, but it sure did stir up a whole load of emotions that im just not ready to deal with. Sometimes I think, maybe I should go back and be part of the "family", hell Im an aunt and I dont even know what the baby is, let alone what its name is, or what its like, I know that I never will either as well Im not welcome there. But theres still my mother, my mum so many times ive asked her to just leave all that, so many times ive offered to help, but she never did, guess she never will, but I cant deal with her whilst she is still with them. Its too hard for me, too much has happened and is still happening that I cant even begin to think about let alone understand or accept. Why on earth she can is beyond me, but I still miss her, still miss having that relationship with her, even though at times Ive wanted to grab her by the shoulders and shake her. Guess you never loose that bond eh?

Plus this is just probably just my path through life, these are the cards Ive been dealt and I now have to make the best hand of them. If only I could just let go of some stuff I know I would feel so much better, but instead I guess I choose to keep beating myself up with it instead. Funny how you never really forget pain, but happiness can fade in an instant.

Oh I dont know the answers, Christ I dont even know the questions.

Still back to the original blog before all that came out. People in my life are very important to me, more important than I let on to be fair. Not all people, but the ones that I do care about, know that I am always there for them. Thats important to me, its important to me that others are happy, before my own happiness (no im not a saint). God this is sounding crap, I cant seem to put the right words together to make it sound like its in my head, guess thats my thought for not thinking and just opening up.

My head is so jumbled up right now, I know ive got choices coming up, I know I need to make them, I know something has to change, but what it is I dont know.

songs to be sad too

one more...I should be in bed really

and another

Found new toy

expect to see a lot of music now...this being a very fave track of mine

Bored with tv

well

I managed an hour and a half at work, only went in as I remembered I had an appointment, did a couple of other bits, but soon felt like crap. So off to waitrose to stock up on cold stuff. My eyes are streaming, nose running, cough like I dont know what, cant taste anything. Yeah im feeling sorry for myself, I dont normally let a cold stop me from working, this must be a superbug one, as its knocked me on my arse.

Oh well, if you need to know where I am, im laid on the sofa, covered in vics vapor rub watching daytime tv...

Well now ive got something else to moan about, woke this morning with a stinking head cold, that has progressivly got worse through out the day. My under nose is now all sore and red, my finger nail is half black from where it got squished saturday night, the nail is lifting a little but think (hope) it doesnt come off.

Camera appears to work again, so have put some photos of the lovely gifts I got. I feel so tired again, trying to resist the urge to crawl back into bed and draw the curtains else I will always do that. Also trying to make sure I eat, I know it sounds silly but even eating becomes a chore and I end up just picking or snaking rather than having a proper meal, although right now I cant taste anything anyway. The house is empty again, so very quiet. Oh well I need to keep busy, then I can watch tv..

thanks..

for all your birthday wishes, cards and presents I enjoyed opening them this morning, in my very hungover state. Think I had a little too much to drink last night. Still never mind.

Today was as ok as I was expecting it to be really, im spending a lot of free time sleeping, in fact im sleeping an awful lot, but its nice as my head switches off for a while, which is needed. I just need to work on my plan now, small steps and all that. Ive decided not to goto the doctors to get some pills, dont think im ready for zombie as yet, I just need to accept it, try to deal with it, then crawl my way back up again.

just keeps getting worse

It didnt work

The wine didnt do its job at all, im still going down, river of blue still threatening to drown me. Whats worse is I have to go out tonight, do the pretending im "happy" thing. Too be honest I would rather stay at home, but I dont think I have that option. Theres a surprise me not doing or being able to do what I want to do.

Thanks for all your comments again, I dont know whats going to happen, whether it will be a trip to the doctors, or I just try and ride it out. I will be back on my own next week, whether thats a good or bad thing we will have to see. I just want to feel happy again.

It carrys on

Ever just sat still? Really still? Amazing how it all just carries on, zooms past you, no-one knows how you feel, or how you are. No-one listens to the answer anyway, the question being how are you feeling?

Look I know some of you are worried about me, Im sorry but I need to still post here as I think I will go crazy otherwise. If it upsets you then I do suggest you stay away from the blog for a while, its going to get worse before it gets better.

Well I think its time I opened some wine, funny isnt it how somethings are still there to offer comfort, or at least make you forget for a short while

Thursday

Well I got up, showered, smoked, tried to eat, smoked some more. Had to goto work, didnt want to, didnt feel like being nice to anyone, managed not to be nice to many. Came home early, tried to do something normal like take some photos, but the camera has a fault, it has an error come up and have to switch it off, after the 4th time, I gave up, camera will now go in box and be put under the bed.

However I have found a new friend. It doesnt ask for anything, is always there, talks to you no matter what, never lets you down or make promises it can not keep. Doesnt feel you with a wasteful sense of joy or hope. Doesnt care if you sit there and cry. Its just there. You can sit and go into a zombie like state, it really doesnt care and wont judge you either. My new friend? The television..

In between waking up last night, I dreamt that I was dead, not particularly disturbing being dead, thing was I didnt really know I was dead. In this big room with loads of people, everyone was getting bunches if white roses taken to them. I was happily waiting for mine. I waited, waited, waited, until everyone else had them in the room, but mine never came. Then everyone started to leave, walking past me, through me, not seeing I was there. Until I was the only one there. In the middle of the room was a single white rose, so I went and picked it up. It was so beautiful, but then it started to bleed, big drops of red blood trickling down the stem. I looked down and my hands were soaked in blood, everytime I tried to wipe the blood away more and more was on me. Carried on until I woke in a panic.

Thanks for your comments. Im not too good right now, and the shades of blue are deepening as I dont feel strong enough to keep them away. Thats the thing if you dont keep fighting it every day, it creeps up on you then takes you over. Right now its going to take me over, as I havnt got enough fight in me to keep it away. Not so much as the cause but the effect in this case, I will be discrete, so please dont expect an explanation, suffice to say I though my life was getting better, but now its not. Thus the effect is im not seeing past the next hour at a time right now. I guess I just need to let it run its course, hopefully it wont be long, although Ive a feeling it will be.

Ever felt

Like your heads just so full of stuff its going to explode?

unfortunately thats how mine is feeling right now.

Ive got that sit and stare into no-where illness, cant snap out of it.


Apart from that, just want to say in advance thanks to those who have sent me cards and presents for my birthday, I wont open them til Sunday. Unfortunately though it seems like this b'day will be the same as every other one. Still dont really know why I thought that this time would be different, how foolish of me!!!

Oh good its raining, even the sky is crying today...

5 Days!

Until im 23!!!!

Oooo and Ive got a parcel already, it keeps starting at me, saying open me....open me....

Ok well a quick update. Birds are still backin force dont think Ive ever had so many greenfinches visiting, going through the sunflower hearts like wildfire! Hogs still away, Ive reduced the food put out now, but well maybe a warm spell will bring them back out again. Not such a great year for them this year, great to see babes with Jan though and Boo, sadly none here :(

The tv was crying this morning, its tired the poor thing through constant use. At least its having a rest for the moment.

Hmmm must remember to request a modesty board at work, im going to be so aware of the way I sit in future after the realisation yesterday that a little more of me can be seen than I am happy with!!!

Lifes half and half right now. Half is fantastic, wonderful, exciting, the other well complete opposite. Still never mind, gritting teeth and getting on with it.

Well must change my tights as Ive just managed to pull a big hole in them, not good!!!

Monday again!

Well not a bad w/e all in all. Didnt get to cambridge, but as the weather is set to be nicer next w/e will try for then! Need to as I dont think there is much of the summer left. Hogs have gone off to their winter homes, seems to be earlier each year. Will keep some food out and cam on, just in case one appears.

Listen...

Can you hear it?

Strain your ears now, really listen...

Yup its the sound of silence, no tv whoo hooo.

Been given a reprieve, a few hours off.

Well the last few days have been ok'ish. Its a bit odd having some one here again. I have enjoyed my own space a fair bit. Its nice to come home and be able to do whatever I want, not have to the bloody tv on too. Oh I do sound mean and selfish I know, plus Im sure it will get easier with time.

Now I just need to know his plans and what he intends to do. He is going to see some-one next week about some work, so should have some more news next week.

Oh I got a parcel this morning from OC! Took me an age to get through the cellotape!!! Its a wonderful dream catcher, Ive hung it near the window, plus Ive now got a woman stone too. Lets hope it helps me be strong over the next few weeks....thanks OC