31 October 2006

New Years Eve

No Ive not gone mad, well no more mad than normal! Its the end of the year! Not much more I can do, but wait now for ratings and keep fingers crossed! Our year has however been changed again, no wonder I get so confused! Intrim short year of two months then the "real" year starts again in January!

Well I think I will add to this later, as I need to do something to my hair to stop me looking like a basin head! Im thinking about colouring it again this week....I hear Orange is back in fashion ;)

30 October 2006

Lovely Morning!

Well what a lovely morning it is, the sun is out, its dry and crisp! Must be as Jan is down here ;)

Im feeling much better too, the horrible headache is now just a dull throb, im not so down on myself too. Guess it was just a blip. Hope so anyway!

Birds are out in full force this morning too. Jackdaws and starlings are competing for the table. Chaffinches and greenies are knocoking down the sunflower hearts in record time. I was a bit worried, yesterday I cleaned all the feeders and table, im using a new disinfectant (for bird tables) I was a bit worried as it seemed to have a strong smell, after several rinses, it did go but was worried about any residual. It says its safe as long as you dont spray directly onto the birds (doh!). Well I just need to find some one to change the time on my watch and I will be a happy bun, though its great now the oven clock is correct!!!!!

Hog snaps







29 October 2006

Driven mad

Well...Ive driven myself mad this w/e. Saturday was boring and quiet at work, went so slowly too. After work I did some shopping in toon, got some new jeans and a couple of tops. Also got some more orange chopped out my hair. Its now quite short I just know I will be swearing in the morning, my fault of course, I always say to cut it shorter than I actually want it too.

Got home felt crap so went to bed (didnt make it to house warming thing), got up about 7 ish, had some dinner, managed to weigh rocky who is still doing well. Then it hit me like a huge slap in the face, it came from no where at all. All of a sudden im on a huge downer. Overly criticising myself, my life, where it has been, where its not going. In the end I just wanted to scream SHUUUUT UUUUPPP. Couldnt sleep a wink as my head was all over the place, hate it when it comes like that. I was in tears and tears and tears. At one point I was wondering if I was ever going to stop crying.

Still Sunday morning came, I felt weak, but knew what I had to do. When you loose control the only way its to take it back, which is what I did. Spent a good 6 hours cleaning the house, re-organising, chucking out crap. I sugar-soaped the walls in the kitchen, cleaned out the cupboards, tackled the mould in the bathroom. I was like a woman possesed, but its one way I can regain some sense of worth again. Why it has to be I dont know. Why I just cant seem to like myself I dont know. Why I continually put myself down I dont know. I just dont know how to accept that I am who I am and that my life is how it is. Having stupid dreams of how I want it to be just dont help, as it hurts when reality comes mocking, telling you well actually thats not going to happen. I dont know I just wish I could even just tolerate myself.

Anyway...Ive been hearing a bird this w/e, couldnt figure out for the life of me what it was. Now being a bit mutton, hearing a bird is some what difficult as you cant tell which way the sound is coming from. Eventually I see it this afternoon, its a cockateil. Not in the garden but a bit down. I phoned the rspca who couldnt send some one out as the bird was still mobile. I walked down to where Id last seen it, but it was gone. Ive looked again for it but no sign. Poor thing out in the cold, the magpies were also taking an interest in it...

Guess Id best get on with some more stuff...

27 October 2006

Thank &*^&( its Friday!

Actually having to work tomorrow, takes the edge off it rather..Still the odd Saturday is always good, especially when its the end of the month, normally means its busy so time should fly. Could really do with some more time at home, the thermostat on the heating has broken, so need to look up how to fix it. I have of course been banned from going anywhere near it (the electrics apparently).

Been watching the playback on the cams last night, rocky came about 30 mins after I went to bed, he must have known he was going to be grabbed and weighed. Still he is eating well, so I imagine he will be over 600g's now, a good weight for hibernation. Flash looks like he must be over 1000 g's, still eating a whole leg of chicken each night!

Oh well, best be off to work.............4 working days til the end of the year!!!!

26 October 2006

More Rocky and Flash








Arnt they just adorable!!!

Well Ive got to have a chat with my boss this morning, I wont go into details, but something has happened at work that Im none to pleased about. Actually I came home Monday in tears to be fair, im not a crying type normally, but somethings do and can reduce me to a blubbering mess, especially when the thing is about me. Ok this makes no sense at all. Lets just say, it should be resolved today...I hope...

My what a big one!!







Saw it on the cam last night, never seen a worm that big before, rushed out to get some photos, but it started to turn for me!!! Not wishing to be worm food ran back inside the house.

Have you ever seen one this long before???

25 October 2006

Well...





Weather was crap so here are some old photos, been playing (sorry mike LEARNING) more about adobe :)

Its Wednesday!

What a miserable day too, its one of those drizzly days. Woke up this morning, sprang out of bed (ok not so much sprang as sauntered) looked out the window, not going out. I know its only rain, but when its all dreary and drizzly just puts me off. My excuse and Im sticking too it.

Ive pottered about the house, trying to get some order back into it, tidied up the front beds etc.. So more of a pottering day really. I will set up the camera in a bit, but the garden is fairly quiet too. The window cleaner has been (no thats not why Im smiling) This always prompts me to do the insides too, but think they can wait a wee while longer.

I really need to go shopping, im going to a house warming party on Saturday night, some-one from work, for some odd reason I thought it was just work people going for a meal, I found out yesterday there will be random young men going too. Men I dont know for that matter. Guess I can pick something up from town after work on Saturday (joy). Well thats about it for now, if I manage some photos I will post them later.

For those of you who are reading this whilst being at work....Thats not what you are paid for......get on with your work!!!

24 October 2006

Silence

Just the sound of birds singing..talking of which on Sunday there was a flock of about 20 teaspoons in the holly tree, what a lovely sight it was too!

Ok the house is still littered with man things, socks mainly who have lost their partners, now Im not really bothered about pairing them up but apparently it is against Sock Law to put the back in the draws without their partners. Frowned upon if you wear them odd...does it really matter ?

Anyway I have some peace and tranquility for the next ten days until he is back again, then he is back with his new g/f. Not quite sure as yet to the living arrangements, I may move out for a while so they can have the house to themselves, well it would be a little awkward other wise. Im still not so sure about her, I think she will get a shock coming over here, oh and she doesnt like cold wet weather......uhm like it is today, miserable weather really gets you down after a while. I was planning a trip out tomorrow but the forecast is horrible. Best get the needles out....

I just want to get through the day today...

23 October 2006

Late hogs

Please keep an eye out for any small hogs in your gardens or on the pavement. There seems to be a high number of autumn juvinles about right now. If you see one out in the day it will definatly need help. If you see any small hogs day or night time, pick them up and weigh them please. Any hog under about 500g's will need to be kept in and fed up before hibernation, this can be dependent on hog too. For lots of help and advice check here on how to help the hogs in your area

http://thehedgehog.co.uk/forum/index.php?PHPSESSID=0cc3243703ce068052d46098f5e75d9a&action=forum

Hormones?

Ever felt like you just want to scream? The kind where you lay on the floor kicking out your legs waving your arms and really screaming?

I feel in such a grumpy mood, really pissed off, really fed up, not so sure why. Too early for "lady time". Maybe its because my house looks like a bomb site. Im not allowed to clean whilst he is here, think he has an allergy to it or something. Plus various computer problems that caused me to turn many shades of red bordering on purple. Ok OK you shouldnt threaten the computer with holding your breath until it decides to work.

Whats up with the weather too, its it that much to ask to get a bit of daylight? Would it hurt to stop raining whilst I walk to the shop and back so I dont look like a drowned rat?

I need to get out somewhere I think, find some inner peace and calm. Well im off wednesday so will see what I can sort out, of course dependent on weather and general state of the house. Im not normally a grump, but past few days I just cant shake it off.

Now where did I leave my fake smile..

21 October 2006

Chilled out Rocky





Just a few more rocky photos being chilled out!!

Oh weighed him last night and he is just 600g's, so Im happy that he is a good size and putting on weight quickly!

More q's

61. How do you do?

Not bad...

62. What's your favourite TV program?

a. currently - Eastenders
b. recently - Autumn Watch
c. distantly - Cant think of one
d. the program they should repeat/repeat more often - Not really that keen on repeats

63. Which conspiracy theory seems most feasible to you?

64. Life swap. Who/What would you exchange with?

Life is what you make it

65. Here's £1000 - whatcha gonna buy huh?

Stock up on animal food, desperatly need some new trainers and underwear

66. Your favourite book?
a. fiction - Oh god cant decide
b. non fiction - any hedgehog book, or cookery

67. Which expression makes your blood boil (kinda, so to speak)?

"at the end of the day" or "no problem"!!!!

68. Food & Drink. What goes together that really shouldn't?
Cheese sandwich with gherkins and salt and vinegar crisps

69. What was the last thing you held in your left hand?
Glass of wine

70. Who is the biggest mong on TV?

Erm,

71. Tell us of your near death experiences.
Never had one

72. List your top 3 songs.

IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!! I have recieved my cd this week, its fantastic!!!nicole Willis And The Soul Investigators Keep Reachin' Up
Apart from that I just cant choose 3 songs that are my fave, just imporssible

73. What if the hokey cokey really is what it's all about?

Then so it must be

74. What was your first full time job?
Waitress in the local pub!

75. Where are you going this weekend?

On a mission to buy a doll, actually walked about 5 miles today! The things I do, really the things I do!

19 October 2006

Well..

Without going into details as a) I cant be arsed b) it would take too long c) Cant really on here.....

No Bonus :( Well not the one I was hoping for, worked hard for, am I gutted? Hell yes! Am I now de-motivated? Hell yes!

Well with heavy dragging feet I will take myself to work this morning. Dreams of new home now put on the back burner for another year. Got to do it all again.

Phill is back today til Tuesday. Apparently im going to be busy, so will catch up when I can......:( :( :( :(

18 October 2006

Rocky update and other stuff








Above shots from cam last night, he is eating well, not taking any rubbish from the other hogs, plus is using the box WHOO HOO!!! I will leave him be for now and weigh again next week to see how he is progressing.

Other stuff....Well I have to goto a recognition lunch today :) Its at midday though, I will never be able to eat at that time, my normaly lunch time is around two. Oh well it will save me having to cook tonight. Its for being customer advisor for the month!!!

I dont want to goto the Doctors this afternoon, Im already thinking of excuses. Ive woken up with a sniffle, constipated, leg has fallen off etc etc....

Oh well, best be off to do the "w" thing....

17 October 2006

Things that go light in the night

Well ive been very tired of late, trying to be good and getting some early nights in. However I dont always manage to fall asleep until the normal time that I would goto bed, but I suopse my body is resting so cant be a bad thing.

Anyway was about 12.15 am. My mind is racing wuth stuff as normal. I sleep with the bedroom door open mostly unless its really cold then its shut. Im laid in bed when all of a sudden the most brightest light comes into the living room. My first thoughts are im dreaming. Minute passes, then im thinking OK its still there and there is a strange noise too. OMG its aliens!!! No cant be aliens they would have shown their faces (if they have them) by now. OMG its my time, this is the bright light that people say they see when they have a near death experience.

Now I have two choices, I can turn over hide under my duvet, or walk towards the light. Well in my head its STAY AWAY FROM THE LIGHT!!! But natural curiosity gets me up. Throw something on, well if im going to meet the maker I shouldnt be nude right? Armed with a can of deodrant (I have no idea, maybe incase it was an attacker and he didnt smell nice ?!?!)

Off I went to investigate.......you will never guess what I found, but do leave your guesses I will finish this later........

16 October 2006

Rocky again....









Well he had a good night, ate, drank, poo'd. He is certainly more like a normal hog this morning, so perhaps it was the fleas and ticks that was bothering him. I will consider letting him go tonight.

15 October 2006

Rocky

Well after last night I wasnt expecting to see him again til tonight. This morning I was outside when I heard a rustle, its not un-common for the birds to be in the brambles near the hog box, but this was a bigger rustle. My first thoughts were shit its a rat, as it was a big enough movement. So safe behind the fence I peered over and was relieved to see spikes.

Rocky was laid behind the hog box, under the brambles slightly curled but hardly covered. I grabbed him and bought him inside, he felt quite warm, but I put a hot water bottle in with him too to warm him up some more. The ticks were still there and so were a lot of fleas, I looked for some flea powder, was sure I still had some but nope couldnt find it.

Headed off to town, shop I normally goto is shut. Now there is a pet shop in the new town so head off there, only a 15 min walk not so bad. Its shut too. Whilst im there I buy a bigger storage box so he will have more room to roam if need be, plus its easier to keep clean. The box I buy is huge, I can hardly carry it. Popped into tescos to get some chicken etc. Amazing how many people got bashed with the box as they would insist on walking right at me! Walk home arms are killing me, its hot, im sweating...nice!

Get home, rocky is asleep for a few moments I thought he had died, so I did prod him to make sure and he moved Horay!

Ok I know of a garden centre that does pet stuff, its a 2 mile walk, but well the poor hog has fleas running all over him. I set off, its all uphill too..yay! I get there, they dont sell it, only dog stuff which is too strong. I heard the man who works there talk about pets at home, which is ten mins walk from my home, I passed it on the way back from town...ffs, before I knew it the words "Stupid Bitch" had escaped my lips, luckily I did manage to convince the woman near me I was talking about myself not her....OOPS.

So head back off, via Sainsburys, just needed a few more bits, plus a nice bottle of beer which I will be enjoying very soon!

Get home again, check rocky, he is sparked out on the hot water bottle..awwww

Off to pets at home, got some Yipppeee. Spoke to a nice chap about removing the ticks so came home with a tick remover tool too.

Got home, decided to do it straight away, spoke to anna (thanks). I oiled the ticks again, held rocky in one hand got the tool in the other, now my hand is shaking at this point, as I move the tool over the tick, position then smoothly and slowly but firmly pull the tick out of rocky. Check to see all head in tact, remove tick into a see through bag. With all the ticks removed I then de-flea him, all the fleas are jumping off him like a ship thats drowning, I squash as many as I can see, but the others soon die (bit sad really). Now to kill the ticks. They are in a bad which I take outside with a rolling pin and bash them..EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SPLAT!!!!! I also bleach them for good measure and some mr muscle kitchen cleaner for extra good measure then I pour the sludge down the sink, pour boiling hot water and some more bleach. I think they are dead.

Well rocky is back on the heat and hiding from me, Im just cooking him some chicken, hope that cheers him up. Ive checked him over, no sign of ringworm, no worms in his poo, so Im not so sure as to what or why he was out there. I will keep him in for a couple of days just to keep an eye on him, then release. Ive got some fresh bedding for the boxes so hopefully he will choose there to sleep instead!

Sorry for long post! If I think he is ok I will get some photos of him, but for now I will leave him be...

Me well. quick tidy of the house, long soak....Oh and that cold beer!!

Then there was 3!








I normally stay up late one night a week, if I could be paid for nattering ......

Anyway, on cam came 3 hogs last night, flash (ah ah), nettle and a much smaller hog. It was holding its own in the dish, but it got grabbed so I could weigh and check it over. Well it is a boy, a lively one at that. Had 4 ticks which got oiled good and proper, apart from them nice and clean, good condition. Weighed him 550g's. He had a lovely rounded shape though, very strong was fighting me! Ive let him go but will continue to monitor, to be honest I would like him a little chunkier, but as I know they know they can always get a meal here, the weather is still mild, he will put on some more weight. I will grab him again in the week to check his progress. I dont think he would have been happy being bought in. Have to weigh up the balance of the stress on the animal and the needs they have.

So anyway say hello to Rocky!

14 October 2006

Still playing with adobe

Free to good home

One Nicola.

She is house trained and occasionally house proud too, she will clean up at least 3 times a week, more with nagging. She has a good job, which occasionally gives her some stress, but well she tried to forget all about work as soon as she steps through the door.

Loyal and loving to the right owner, cold and stubborn to the wrong one. Keep her entertained else her eye will wander. Keep her happy and you will have the best Nicola you could ever imagine.

She likes nice walks, enjoys her simple pleasures in life. Gets on with children and pets, would make a great addition to the family home.

Fair to note though she is prone to bouts of depression where she can be found to be drinking gin, smoking, listening to some suitable music and staring into space. Contemplating all that has gone right or wrong in her life is one thing that shouldnt be encouraged if you own a Nicola.

If anyone can provide a loving home and save her crumbling sanity please apply...



trying adobe

13 October 2006

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A Life Line origin high and close to their index finger live life to its fullest
A variable depth Head Line have widely varying levels of concentration
A Heart Line destination curving toward their middle finger are highly expressive
Rounded fingers and thumbs are impressionable
A pink Mound of Saturn have a high sense of self worth and are reliable and cautious

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Palmists can learn a substantial amount from the lines of your palm. The four major lines are your Life Line, Head Line, Heart Line, and Destiny Line. From your Life Line, a palmist can tell what your general approach to life is and how you deal with life's challenges. Your Head Line reveals how you process information and think through problems. Your Heart Line can give a palmist insight into your personal relationships, including friends, family, and significant other(s). Your Destiny Line pertains to changes in your personal drive and focus over time. In addition, a palmist can read some of the lesser lines — if they are present in your palm — for information on your level of creativity, communication skill, and attachments you may have or will have with others throughout your life.


Life Line

The Life Line reveals your approach to life and how you handle uncertainty or hardship. It is a common misconception that the Life Line can tell you when you will die. Even persons with relatively short Life Lines can live a long life. Generally, the information that can be gleaned from your Life Line pertains to your overall outlook and the ease with which you will travel through your life.





You have a natural ability to show your love and sympathy for others. You are generally supportive when friends or family come to you for assistance.

One of the most important things to you in life is to make sure that you are living your life to its fullest. When you have regrets, they are likely to stem from a sense of not having done enough or wishing that you had done something differently.

When you are confronted with serious problems in life, you tend to become confused or overwhelmed. This may mean that it is hard to get clarity on certain issues. You sometimes find yourself fumbling to decide between what is actually a bona fide problem in your life as opposed to a minor distraction.


Head Line

The Head Line reveals how you process information and think through problems. It is a common misconception that the Head Line can tell you how intelligent you are. Persons with various styles of Head Lines can be very smart, but in different ways. Primarily, the information that can be gathered from your Head Line pertains to your particular way of understanding the information you come into contact with throughout your life.





When it comes to leadership, you are probably quite comfortable in either the role of the leader or the follower. Since taking charge is not necessarily something you covet, you are usually fine with stepping aside to let someone else take the lead. However, if no one else steps up, you know you are capable of taking on the leader role.

Your thought process tends to be a balance of rational and imaginative approaches. While you can solve complex problems when necessary, you may also enjoy listening to your intuition when faced with decision-making. Your ability to draw on both rational and intuitive parts of your brain may be confusing to some, especially if your ability to do so is sporadic or inconsistent.

The projects that you tend to like the most are ones where you are sleuthing for a solution to a complicated problem or set of issues.

When you have a choice, you'd probably rather research and investigate multiple options simultaneously. You are likely a master multi-tasker who enjoys having many balls in the air at the same time.


Heart Line

The Heart Line reveals how you handle the relationships in your life and how comfortable you are with intimacy. It is a common misconception that the Heart Line can tell you definitively what relationships you will have in the future. On average, the information that can be collected from your Heart Line indicates the influences in your life that have in the past or will in the future affect your personal relationships, including friends, family, and significant other(s).





Your ability to be intimate with others may be influenced by a lack of commitment. You may find it difficult to make emotional promises, even if you are married. People you don't know well may find you somewhat distant.

In close-knit connections, you tend to be an analytical person who spends a lot of time thinking about and seeking to understand your relationships. Your ideal life partner will likely marvel at your considerate and thoughtful nature. Beware though — at times you may get stuck inside your head too much, always thinking, and not allowing yourself to go with the flow.

For more information about your close relationships with others, see the "Attachment Lines" section of this report below.


Destiny Line

The Destiny Line (also called the Saturn Line) reveals changes in your personal drive and focus over time. There is much that a palmist can tell about your career and/or personal drive, including approximate timing of major events or changes — just by looking at the Destiny Line! Primarily, the information garnered from your Destiny Line on your right palm — the Palm you looked at to answer the questions on this test — pertains to your career. In turn, the information gathered from your Destiny Line on your left palm pertains to your personal sense of purpose.





Your career choice is likely influenced by your intense focus, along with your gifted ability to systematically set and achieve goals. Dedicated and persistent, the job most likely to make you work around the clock is one that rewards your steady and unwavering pace toward completing objectives.

Chance and luck may play a big factor in your chosen career. There may be a time that you have to choose a certain direction. To make a decision, it's probably best to keep your mind open to the different options that come your way.


Apollo Line

The Apollo Line can predict your level of creativity and flexibility, although not everyone has an Apollo Line; it is a vertical line that appears below your ring finger.





The presence of an Apollo Line — even a short or faint one — suggests higher than average success in creative ventures. A person with an Apollo Line is more likely to receive acknowledgement as an expert or specialist in their chosen field. There is also a high likelihood of gaining personal recognition.


Mercury Line

The Mercury Line can foretell your skill at communication or psychic ability. However, not everyone has a Mercury Line; it is a vertical line that appears below your pinky finger.





If you don't have a Mercury Line in your palm, it doesn't represent a lack of communication skills. Usually, it suggests you land around average or slightly above in your public speaking skills. Otherwise, there is a chance that you may not listen to your intuition as closely as those with a Mercury Line.

Your palm does not contain the Line of Psychic Ability, which resembles an arc that is an extension of a person's Mercury Line. While psychics do not always have the Line of Psychic Ability, those who have the line can more easily tap into their paranormal skills. While you may have psychic abilities, you will likely have a more difficult time accessing them than someone with the Line of Psychic Ability.


Attachment Lines

The Attachment Lines reveal the major relationships you may have with others. Traditional palmists engage in ample debate about the validity of these lines as predictions of marriages and children. However, most agree that the attachment lines indicate the possibility that a person might marry or have children, whether they choose to or not is a decision left to the individual.





A palmist would say that you will be married multiple times or have several committed relationships that do not lead to marriage. It will be up to you at some point to make a decision that will either drive you toward or away from each of these relationships. A palmist would say that you will have the opportunity to have at least one child, probably including a boy. The decision to embrace this opportunity to bring children into your life is yours.




The mounds of your palm can tell you what kinds of energy you possess naturally and which energies will be more difficult for you to access. Through a careful examination of the fleshy areas of your hand, you can learn which areas of life you will be most likely to find success. The following traits were determined by looking at the shape and color of different areas of your hand.


Mound of Jupiter





The Mound of Jupiter — located in the upper right corner of your palm, just below your index finger — is related to your personal power, your hopes and ambitions, and your ability to lead others.

You are blessed with a strong Mound of Jupiter. So, what does that mean? When you are at your best, the clear goals you set go hand-in-hand with your self-motivated direction. Together these qualities tend to set you apart from others as a strong leader.


Mound of Saturn







The Mound of Saturn — located in the upper portion of your palm, just below your middle finger — is related to your concept of self-worth, personal satisfaction, and security.

Your palm reveals a somewhat poor Mound of Saturn, as affirmed by its shape and color. You probably don't have an innate gift for self-reflection or personal accountability. To tap into your inner tranquility all you need to do is put forth the commitment to change. It's well within your reach!


Mound of Apollo





The Mound of Apollo — located in the upper portion of your palm, just below your ring finger — is related to self-expression, originality, and recognition of your talents by others.

You possess a hearty Mound of Apollo. When you're at the top of your game, you exude creativity effortlessly. Thinking quick on your feet is what you're known for. This along with your inventiveness sets you apart from the rest. If anyone is looking for an original perspective, they often come to you as an endless source of unique ideas.


Mound of Mercury





The Mound of Mercury — located in the upper portion of your palm, just below your pinky finger — is related to intimacy, spiritual understanding, and interpersonal communication.

You can tell by its great shape and color that a healthy dose of Mound of Mercury sits in your palm. When things are going well for you, one could say that communicating clearly is your strong point. You really understand what makes people tick. Others feel comfortable sharing intimate details of their life with you that they may not with others. Family and friends look to you as a deep and insightful confidant.


Mound of Mars

Upper Mound of Mars




The Upper Mound of Mars located in the middle left portion of your palm — is related to inner calm, boldness, and skill at dealing with life's problems.

The plump shape and color in your palm signifies a strong Upper Mound of Mars. When you have your best foot forward, you have the uncanny ability to maintain your cool in the midst of chaos. This singles you out from the rest as an exceptionally stable and brave individual.


Lower Mound of Mars




The Lower Mound of Mars — located in the middle right portion of your palm — is related to action, aggressiveness, and the momentum to make things happen.

You're all that, with your strong Lower Mound of Mars, as indicated by its healthy shape and color. On your best days, your take-charge attitude makes people stop and listen. This is a great attribute along with your energetic approach to life that is contagious. You stand out above others as extremely motivated.


Mound of Venus





The Mound of Venus — located in the lower right portion of your palm — is related to love, sympathy, and depth of emotion.

You have a powerful Mound of Venus, as exemplified by its vibrant shape and color. At your brightest moments, your thoughtfulness and caring demeanor shine through as one of your best strengths. These traits set you apart from the rest. Others often want to cry on your shoulder. Hence you possess such a great skill for counseling and have handed out your fair share of advice.


Mound of Moon





The Mound of Moon — located in the lower left portion of your palm — is related to intuition, mental acuity, and adeptness with thinking outside the box.

As illustrated by its awesome shape and color, you have a mighty Mound of Moon. When you're at your best, your inventiveness can lead you to truly original ideas that most people wouldn't think of.
Your Fingers and Thumb
While you may not consider the fingers and thumbs as part of a palm reading, they really do play a significant part of a traditional hand analysis. Palmists read signs in the fingers and thumb as well as using them as landmarks for other parts of the reading. The interpretation of the mounds and lines of the palm are highly influenced by their proximity to each finger and the thumb.

The shape of your fingers and thumb reveal that you are an impressionable person. You are open to the influences in the world around you, yet you generally don't act in drastic ways. Moderation is key for you. The finger and thumb shape create energies that influence the reading of each of your fingers and thumb and by extension, your entire palm.





Your index finger, also called the Jupiter Finger, traditionally corresponds with leadership abilities. Your Jupiter Finger is strong which means you probably enjoy being in charge. You'll likely prefer to have a team of people working under your direction and enjoy guiding people to meet their potential. Your index finger leans in toward your middle finger, indicating your need to know that others feel good about you. While gaining approval from your peers is a positive thing, you need to sustain a solid sense of self-worth. Becoming dependent on positive feedback won't help you in the long run.

Your middle finger, also called the Saturn Finger, traditionally corresponds with confidence. Your palm bears a strong Saturn Finger. One could probably bet your sense of self- worth ranks high. It is more likely that you take risks in life because you believe in your ability to succeed.

Your ring finger, also called the Apollo Finger, traditionally corresponds with creativity. You have a strong Apollo Finger, which may mean you were born with your own creative nature. You probably love contributing to the world in ways that challenge you to think of unusual and original methods of doing things. Your ring finger leans in toward your middle finger, indicating your concern for the consequences of your actions. This tendency may be hampering your creativity because you are always thinking in terms of boundaries and limitations.

Your pinky finger, also called the Mercury Finger, traditionally corresponds with insight and understanding. You are blessed with a strong Mercury Finger. As a result, you probably find that you have a natural talent for understanding other people. Your friends usually routinely turn to you for your insight. Your guidance helps them understand their interactions with others. Your pinky finger leans in away from your ring finger, revealing your strong notion to think as individual and not adopt mainstream ideas.

Your thumb can be read to ascertain your level of flexibility when it comes to dealing with people or unpredictable situations. Your thumb reveals that you are a fairly flexible person who commonly tries to keep the peace.

Bored!

So I did one of those read your own palm things, anyway this is what it said!




Dear nicola,

Here is your personal palm reading! This will be a general reading of
your palm, and what it says about you and your personality. Enjoy.

First let's take a look at your Life Line. The double Life Line you
may see on your hand is a very lucky marking. They extra lines are
called 'vitality lines' and they indicate increased vitality and positive
forces at work in your life. The wide swooping motion of your Life Line
indicates strength, enthusiasm and an improved love life. The little
lines you see extending upward from your Life Line are representative of
your ability to recuperate. The little lines you see extending
downward from your Life Line are indicators of your tendency to waste your
energy.

Now let's see what your Head Line had to say. A doubled line show
increased mental ability. A chained Head Line shows agitation and tension
at different points in your life. If your Head Line is forked near the
middle of your palm, it shows an important new interest. If it is
forked at the end, it shows a descent into second childhood. Having your
Head Line and Heart Line separated shows a love for adventure and an
enthusiasm for life.

The last line we'll look at is your Heart Line. A slight disregard to
the true meaning of love and its responsibilities are indicated by a
Heart Line like yours that starts between the middle and index finger.
You tend to easily give your heart away. A long Heart Line like yours,
running almost all the way across the palm, represents an idealist in
love. In love you tend to look for those whose status rises above your
own, and you have a great respect for them. Your double Heart Line
shows that you are protected by someone who loves you. The small lines
you may see extending upward from your Heart Line are a good sign, as
they illustrate happiness in love. Your chained Heart Line is an
indication that your life is sometimes bothered by emotional tensions.

You posses a square hand. This is typically the mark of a working,
balanced, earthy individual. Most businessmen who've become successful,
and have risen from working with their hands, have square palms. This
type of hand is typically found on people, who are involved in a
practical, materialistic occupation. They see people usually have solid
values and a lot of physical energy.

We hope that gives you a little more insight into your personality, and
your palm. Thanks for visiting us.

For Gwenhwyfar

More q's!

47. What do you think Canada is really like?

Warm, inviting, cheery as OC lives there and she will make it like that!

48. What's in your pockets?

Erm dont have pockets in a towel, but well my handbag thats a different matter!

49. What do you consider 'depression' to be?

A very complicated illness, that keeps trying to get me!

50. What makes you v.angry?

Rudeness, cruelty, bad manners, people who have no respect, far too many really to list

51. When was the last time you burst out laughing, why?

The other day, whilst behind the counter talking about my lady bits, to realize they had their microphones on and the whole branch could hear me. Oh and just now recalling my favorite joke!

52. Tell me your fashion disasters.

Pink Jelly shoes, well I was 8

53. Write your own obituary in less than 10 words.

Can someone feed the hogs please, thanks

54. What can you put in a box to make it lighter?

A lit match

55. You have to change your name, what would you legally change it to?

Mrs Keanu Reeves

56. Your favourite 3 course meal?

Erm

57. Recall your super-natural experiences.

Have had a few of them, mainly feelings that some one is there, I used to be really into self hypnosis, could also come out of my body too, that was cool

58. What is your 'trade mark' party trick?

Havnt got one of those

59. Tell us your favourite joke.

What do you call a sheep with no legs...........a cloud!

60. Which of the above questions were supplied by other bbf members?

Dont know



Birgit dont forget your answers please..................Oh are we having a real tree at Christmas, or fake?

11 October 2006

Well I did it!

I overcame my fear and have made an appointment for the nurse next week (only erm 2 years late) too be honest I was getting fed up with the reminder letters nearly every month! Im really not keen on going. I know I need to, but well its the indignity of laying there, legs open, not really knowing where on earth to look. Do I maintain eye contact or look at the ceiling?

Last time I went it did rather put me off, with the nurse, walking round changing sides, swapping the instrument of torture for a larger one.... not quite sure what she was implying there!!

I have to go though, I just hope to god, they dont find anything like the last time, I really dont want the experience of having a full film crew going up there again, spraying vinegar, its not like I keep fish n chips up there is it ?!?!?!?

10 October 2006

Restless

Hate this feeling, it comes on every so often, I start to look at my life and decide im bored with it. Want a change, different view when I look out the window, different routine, different job, well basically different life.

It comes on mainly when im not sleeping great, too many dreams waking me up. Too much time to think about how things are, how I want them to be and in my mind what I think Im missing out on.

I dunno, maybe I need a new hobby....Sensible suggestions only please :)

09 October 2006

I need it!!!!

Isnt it always the way, when you have a wee cash flow problem there is always a list of stuff that you want, no need! Now im not a frivolous person, I very rarely buy myself treats, stick to a strict budget (cough), shop wisely and watch the pennies. Well I do really I suppose.

Anyway every morning I walk past Boots on the way to work, they are adverting half price electronic toothbrushes. Now I have a manual one, which is fine it has one of those tongue scrapers on the back which makes me gag every morning! I also do have an electric one, but never got on with it, as weird as it sounds, I wanted a blue one, but was bought a white one, the disappointment meant I just couldnt bond with it. Now in the window of boots there is a lovely blue one all sparkly too, plus its half price!! Well after some financial jiggery, stealing from peter etc etc. I find I can afford one! WHOO HOOO

So I leave work tonight, straight to boots, I know what I want exactly, bugger me there are four different varieties, bits with plastic, bits that are round, straight and round bits too. After 10 mins of deliberation and looks from the woman I went with the original one, the lovely blue sparkly one. They have moved all the stuff about in there too. Before near the till was all the boring crap, plasters medicines etc. Now its all the potions and lotions and all the must haves.

The bottles of promises were screaming at me, BUY ME BUY ME, I will make you look younger, I will make your skin smooth, I will strip ten layers off your face like sandpaper. Honestly I was starting to shake with the pressure, of a small budget and so many things I NEED! I did settle on some facial wipes that promise to clear up the outbreak of spots im suffering with at the moment, plus some clear mascara as its hard to come by (thats my excuse).

Well its taken me 20 mins to get into the new toothbrush, why oh why do they make the packaging so difficult to get into ????? Its now on charge looking all lovely and blue and sparkly on my bathroom windowsill....cant wait for bed time now!

08 October 2006

w/e update

Well havnt been up to much to be fair, done a lot of books and accounting stuff, against my wishes I may add, but has to be done as well as tax returns too, all very much big yawn stuff!

Today I was up fairly early for me on a Sunday, Im not sleeping that well again, so many weird dreams, not really horrible ones as such, but ones that make you wake up and question your sanity.

Today was a clean the house sort of day, oh god I really am turning into my mother, its a sad fact that we all do eventually. I now get excited about dusters and cleaning stuff!

My mind is very active too tonight, too active really, so many questions and thoughts going round and round and round. Im dreading actually trying to sleep tonight, this is when I get really bad nightmares and normally end up with some one trying to murder me, or along those lines.

Well its Monday tomorrow, god I hate Mondays, must be my worse day of the week, for a whole number of reasons really. I hate that Sunday feeling too, when you know its Monday coming up, that dread that sinking feeling in your tummy.

Oh well, nowt I can do about it, so will brave the day with vigor and think of 5 pm!

07 October 2006

More hogs






05 October 2006

From Birgit

Four Things about me that you may not know

A) Four jobs I have had in my life



Reception Manager

Barmaid

Waitress

Plaster Packer



B) Four films I could watch over and over



Dirty Dancing

Matrix

Planes, trains and automobiles

True Romance



C) Four places I have lived

Cambridge

Oxford

Oakham

Scunthorpe


D) Four TV shows I love to watch





Eastenders

erm will have to come back to this one






E) Four places I have been on holiday

Holland

Wales

Tunisia

Crete



F) Four of my favourite foods

Seafood

Spinach

Cheese

Thai



G) Four places I would rather be right now



Back in bed

My own private island

Coast

With some-one


H) Four authors I like



Stephen King

James Herbet


Dean Koontz

Virginia Andrews





I) Four actors I like



Keanu Reeves (of course)


How could I choose more it wouldnt be fair!





Birgit I know Im meant to respond by email, but well erm I havnt :)

04 October 2006

Flash and nettle